Another night, another set of thoughts
My heart is heavy today. Here are some thoughts: Everyone affected by adoption is holding trauma. And anger. How you process the damage that was done to you is entirely your business. What you did to survive what you lived through should not be judged by others. How I survived is simply that. It's how I survived. Not all of us handle trauma/grief the same way. At the same time, it has taken me a while to understand that how I heal also affects those around me. There's that quote, "If you never heal from what hurt you, you’ll bleed on people who didn’t cut you." And I'm just trying to heal from what I survived through. I for one am angry about my experience. About my adoption experience. About my late discovery experience. It was, and is, filled with pain. I will do what I need to do to survive. And to heal. Within reason. Because I don't want to bleed on anyone else along the way. How I choose to deal with those who "cut me" is 100% up to me. I will